Wednesday, June 5, 2013
With JG we were also thinking it... but i just can't remember why we didn't go ahead with it..
Well with Camila, we were seriously doing research, came across a pair of midwifes that gave us a bunch of information and also the most important... their pricing $3500 big bucks. Gee how could we afford it.. well thanks to a little angel we were able to afford it. Then I went to the initial appointment and they told me their fee was only for their labor... What?! you don't supply the stuff.. the birth kit.
I started doing some research and the only thing that worries me is the registration at the SD RECORDS office... there are so many requirements that make me a little iffy... but I think we can go ahead with it.
Well we are going to have an unassisted birth, no doctor, no midwife... a lot of people may disagree because they think or society has made them think we need a doctor, nurses, equipment and hospital to have a "natural birth" whats so natural about being hooked up to a machine. And it's not us being old fashioned or trying to save a couple of bucks, at this point it's about doing it the way nature intended it.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Its been a while! Almost a year this June 6! Jovan Gerardo was born on 6.6.12, and then we got pregnant again 10.15.2012 so i am about due. I am currently 31 weeks pregnant and we are planning a home birth. What are we we having?...... a Girl! Im going to try to update this as much as possible, leaving you with some pics.....
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
its that time already, i remember that with Alanna it used to be one hour, but apparently they changed it up to 2 hours, i am not liking this, its making me nauseous. I was trying to skip this test, since my due date is close.... but yesterday at the doctors appointment, they told me i would be treated as diabetic of i didn't take the test.... i had no option!
For the 33 week appointment, everything seems fine, ill be off procardia at 37 weeks...hopefully he will come by then which is the beginning of June, yay for that! A June baby!!
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
I think he sweeped my membranes because it hurt more than the usual check up....Hooked me to the contraction monitor and no contractions were registered....
I got home and of course little spotting was found in my undies... they have subsided but I seem to have more cramping right now... So I am drinking some tea, sitting on a yoga ball and walking, no not walking, galloping up the hill.... lets see if it works...
Friday, June 1, 2012
The race starts today, Jovan says he will be born on Sunday and I said from the 4th (full moon) to the 6th...
I am ready to evict this child!
I have doctor's appointment today... HOPEFULLY i will be a little bit more advanced than i was at 35 weeks... Keep your fingers crossed
Friday, May 18, 2012
Glucose Test- Good
I was not taking Procardia anymore, it makes me feel horrible... Yesterday Dr told me to start taking it again.. I started in the afternoon...
I can't really walk anymore, I feel like if the baby is pushing down and it's pinching something in there... Hopefully he will wait until the beginning of June... I have stuff to do! who doesn't? LOL
I can't sleep at night... toss and turn...take showers, have hot flashes, and so many other pains that come with pregnancy... Im starting to think that I may not want to have other babies.... We'll see...
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
You cant really see it but its lower now.... i was checking to see when did Alanna dropped, and she did at about 30 days or so..... that means ill be delivering end of the month or beginning of June.... hopefully.
Did i mention we are having a boy? well we are! and he will be named after my husband and also to honor my dad, Jovan Gerardo... Oh i cant wait to meet him!
Also no baby shower for this one...and i am thankful to say that Jovan shares my way of thinking, we believe that its ok for the first one, but not for 2nd or 3rd....plus whoever wants to give someyhing the baby will give it, there is no need for parties....again right or wrong that is our way of thinking
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Stayed overnight.. and was sent home, no bed rest or nothing..
lets see how it goes
Friday, January 27, 2012
Most people tell us that we will now have "la parejita" but I hate to disagree to that comment... why say that if they won't be sharing make up, dolls, clothes... On the plus side, they won't fight for those things either...
Regardless... I love the fact that we are going to experience something new!!! We are extremely excited!
A has also picked the name... but i'm not sure J likes the name... but hey...I got my ideas for the baby.. and I have to admit I love the Name that A picked... (will probably figure it out when we see his sweet sweet face)
On a different note.. I want to start Vlogging... I've seen couple of vloggs and they seem so interesting, maybe I'll try it sometime.....
Nuff of the random posting.. my head is all over the place
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Which is great!
I am soo excited.. but I am also very cautions of the things I do and Don't do...
Morning Sickness is at night... but all of a sudden... I am getting it all day now... so forget about water, coffee or chips. nothing.... i cannot eat anything....
Lost 5 lbs already.... and I think, i'm just shedding the excess.. LOL
Anyways... it's so easy for me to loose track of what I initially logged in for....
2nd Dr Appointment was very gratifying, we heard the heartbeat 159 beats per minute...My little darling is a strong hearted... or so i felt.... Leaving the Dr K's office, i burst into tears, tears of joy... i couldn't contain myself... "a beat of hope".
Hearing the heart means you have reduced by 30% the chance of a loss..
We will keep you updated.. Next Appointment is on Nov 23rd....
Friday, November 4, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
I had not had the chance to just let it all out... i sometimes pretend to be stronger than i am... but i am not, I rather not talk about it, and swallow the whole pain in one big gulp.... and it almost feels like I'm swallowing a big ball of fire, especially when my daughter asks me "is my little brother hungry" or "cold" or any question related to our loss. I can't let her see the pain... I push the words out of my mouth and hold back my tears and tell her.. "he/she is going to be a little bit late"
Yesterday, was bad... anything would make me cry... My husband asked me if I wanted to go to our chapel... I didn't know if I wanted to be there.
I felt so much sadness, I couldn't bear the thought of being in front of God, What would I say? My head is asking " why did you give him to me and then take him away" but my heart reminded me of our Virgin... How selfish of me... who was I to ask something like that?
I cried, sat there just accepting his will
And I prayed for strength...
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
Sure enough I get to work... and i go to the ladies room... pee and wipe pinkish....
I can't even bear the thought
Monday, August 8, 2011
Iam very scared, im scared of going to the doctor on August 16th and the same thing happening... I'm freaked out, I've been taking pt like crazy.....I even bought a digital one....
Today I decided to take a belly picture.... What is the worse that can happen... break my heart again... Let's just pray for the best
|Not bad ;)|
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Llegue a encomendarle mi pequeno retonito a Mi Virgencita, y que fuera lo que ella quisiera lo aceptabamos con mucho gusto. Que todo lo que nos mandan, es porque saben que podemos y que seremos los mejores padres para nuestros hijos.... Senti una bendicion tan grande cayo sobre mi.... no habia podido caer en cuenta, que todo este tiempo de dolor que yo tenia, habia llegado a su final...y empeze a llorar de felicidad... Diran que que chipis.... pues si.... no es cierto.... si senti algo muy bonito....
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
It has been a very humble experience for us, my sister recently found out she was pregnant for the second time, and she was already 20 weeks, it just left me to just sit and question God's decisions, why? why them? why her? what about us?
Couldn't even bear the thought, I couldn't think of it... nor talk to her, seeing her pregnant cracked, punched and squeezed my heart every time.
We moved on... I would worry every month, but not like before...
Not to long ago, and I'm going to make it very short because apparently this dream has other meanings as well, I am still trying to decipher... it started scary but it got peaceful at the end of that part.
Im going to call her my guardian angel, because she came to tell me something in my dream, i can't quite remember what it was about, but during the dream she was with me everywhere I went, and I remember asking for her to visit me often and, she responds that, She had only come to warn me, and that it was very hard to get these kind of permits.
(That is what makes me believe she is a guardian angel.)
At almost the end of the dream, i dared to ask one more question, and it went something like this "am i preggers?" she just smiled and that was all I needed to burst into tears of happiness. She answered that before I even knew!
Yesterday I made T-shirts for our daughter and one for daddy, Telling them about the expectancy.I will post pictures later
I am still kind of worried since the it's just the beginning... in the meanwhile keep us in your prayers
Monday, August 1, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
In the meanwhile... I will be making Pozole! Literally! LOL
Any good recipes out there? I got mine, but i like to change things a bit... you never know what could happen!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
My body keeps on gaining weight and following my hormones orders like if i was still pregnant, i keep on doing research, trying to find answers that no website will give me....I read Misdiagnosed miscarriage and my hopes get up, but then I get into more medical crap and my hopes get shot just like a deer at an open range.
And what is up with the baby boom?
My little family spent a mini vacation at Julian and I couldn't seem to get my away from my mourning and really enjoy my surroundings... Everything made me think...and not to help the cause, this lady at a diner.... told us "you should really have another one..." Felt like putting salt, lemon and tequila on an open wound... no words came out, you could just hear our thoughts and feel our sadness...I know my husband felt what I was feeling... but we both opt not to go that road... it Hurts
I guess what i couldn't tell him then and there... I am pouring here Sorry....
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Just waiting for my body to release it...
Last week at the appointment... and allow me to say what a difference! He was so much better than the other doctor, Doctor K was a much younger doctor and much more sympathetic doctor... He just said, don't worry we will get through this... we will help you pass this ....
He allowed me to wait 3 more weeks to let my body do it's course, the inevitable... and then a D&C
The sac did not grow more than six weeks which by now it would have been 8 weeks... Things happen for a reason and I know God doesn't send you more than you can handle, but it hurts...
I don't want to hear.. you guys are young, you got your life ahead..
I know that!
For now... Or little angel is in heaven...just allow us to mourn....
PS next appointment is on the 11th
Friday, January 14, 2011
I received my hcg levels and did not look very promising... only raised by 2,000 already had 6,000 + did not double just increased... and the call i was dragging... to go in and get a D&C done or just wait until my body rejects it.
I want nothing done like i had said...I am not even going to take the dr's call, I already made another appointment with another doctor... 2nd opinion...
I've forgotten to listen to my heart, and it tells me everything is going to be ok..
I have a beautiful daughter and a wonderful husband that supports me with everything
Thursday, January 13, 2011
That's all i can say
Last week in ER I was measured at 5 Weeks... Yesterday I was measured at 5 Weeks 6 Days... Only the Sac was present
I get a call from the doctor and she says that she wants to do a laparoscopy and more lab tests, but personally and made sure she heard ME this time... I don't want anymore ultrasounds or procedures... If God wants me to have this baby then it will happen... it's in his hands now.
I'm just going to let nature run it's course and see what happens.
Whoever reads this post, thanks for the prayers and good thoughts... they are greatly appreciated
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I tried calling that doctor... and she wasn't there... oh the wait...
Again... where is my bottle of patience? oh wait... my 2 year old accidentally spilled it! LOL
I get another call at night... from "the" doctor again and she advised me to go to ER... I put my foot down on this one...i asked her if it was truly necessary if I already had an appointment scheduled for an ultrasound today.. she said..oh no its just for us to check... OH HECK NO!
I said you know I'm not going to go to ER.. I am not experiencing any kind of pain or bleeding... why should i? did my levels go up? They did end up going up, tripled... Which is a good sign.. like I had imagined when earlier that day i received that call...
Well I got the appointment at 3 today... hopefully we will just have to wait...
OH btw one of my good friends sent me this website...
gave me a lot inspiration and hope.. especially the first story... In tears...at work....
seems kind of corny, but I just never imagined myself going through something like this....
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
My doctor, which I am planning on changing ASAP because of this... told me i might have an ectopic pregnancy... Or because of my levels it could be twins, REALLY DOCTOR, REALLY? from one end to the other one?
I was called on Thursday for an Emergency Ultrasound and Lab Tests... My HCG levels were down.. but there was a G Sac...but it was not ectopic and the Sac measured 5 Weeks
I went in yesterday my G Sac Grew but still nothing...
I've had no cramping until today... that could mean 2 things... Either my body is growing or my body is expelling a bad pregnancy...
Oh the wait.. I gotta wait for my HCG Level Results again... and also a progesterone test that was requested yesterday.... and the wait is just killing me!
I just hate when i have no saying on things...like this one... there is nothing, absolutely nothing i could do to keep this pregnancy... except my faith...